Solo

 

I wish I could buy you a car,

An old truck

Shiny and pretty

Probably a Scottsdale.

I wish I could give you an allowance

Big enough to cover endless movies, mall trips, and nights out with the boys.

I wish I could get you to smile

Like when you’re trying to get something 

By me, And your face lights up 

and your lips turn up so high 

they shift the twinkle in your eyes.

I wish I could hold you again at age 1,

with your NUK in your mouth and Ben folds blaring.

I wish you were 2, arguing in full sentences,

Potty trained and shaking your head in disdain at me.

I’m wish you were 3. 

A worker man dragging papa’s leaf blower all over the yard, a frying pan in  your hand after watching Tangled (Long Hair), 

and a pirate-bad-guy song on your lips.

I waited 27 years for you-

For the best thing my life has ever known.

You arrived with blond hair and blue eyes- 

A stranger even though you grew inside me.

You wanted to move

Wanted music to blast

And things to rush in front of you

Like the scenery flying past on 95.

You walked early,

Talked early,

And made us think something was wrong

With every other kid your age.

I adore you my Solo.

I have never begged and wept and waited

For anything,

Like I waited for you.

A whirling dervish,

My Destructo,

My Pirate, my bad guy, my villain,

My kind boy.

I adore you.

You were made for greatness.

Made for followers and friends 

to walk In your footsteps.

So, 

lead well. 

Make each step count.

Smile, and let joy light up your face.

Tell everyone about Jesus.

Be everyone’s friend,

Everyone’s wing man,

Everyone’s confidant.

Tell everyone the salvation story.

You are amazing my sweet Solo.

My first best gift. 

My first joy,

My first unconditional love.

Seek Jesus.

Follow Him.

Walk the narrow path.

Throw off everything that hinders,

And run the race set before you.

I’m here for it all.

But hear me on  this- 

I implore you-

run to Jesus.

Don’t be Jonah.

You’ll get where He wants you anyway, 

Avoid the consequences.

Reap blessings.

Love everyone,

Know Jesus,

Love Jesus,

Give Jesus

To everyone